That’s A Morass

Liz Sumner Patience, Service 3 Comments

I’m in an energetic swamp– no actually that does a disservice to swamps. Some of them are more beautiful and alive than what I’m feeling.

Outside the sun is shining. It’s nice temperature for walking. And I feel as though I’m dragging around sandbags every time I take step. All I want to do is escape into trash novels, binge TV, glasses of wine, and a down comforter.

All of the conditions that would move me forward are dependent on outside forces. Decisions that keep getting put off, deadlines that get moved, solutions that don’t fix the problem. I take deep breaths. I massage my clenched jaw. I try to resuscitate my exhausted patience. I slog through another day.

I often have some blues as the seasons change from summer to autumn. I’ve also heard astrological experts say that this malaise is widespread and reflected in current events. Whatever the cause it sucks and I want it to go away.

Are you feeling like gravity got turned up and you’re wearing lead boots? Many people, including my wise Aunt Peg, have said that when you’re feeling sorry for yourself the best thing to do is to help someone else.

If you’d like some support to get through the doldrums let me know. I can help. Or tell a friend who’s feeling this way to get in touch. She’s not alone. We’ll help each other out.

Comments 3

  1. I feel for you Liz. I’m disappointed with my weight challenge having failed so far but the weather cooling, the angle of fall light crank me up. For me, it’s the deep bleak winter that sets me down so I’ve alot to accomplish before the ‘greys’ hit my brain. This year, I’m running away to Egypt in December and we’re looking at even further for spring. Maybe it’s a good time to take a short wander with your Michael? I dread having sets of clothes always damp. But once I get my butt outside, I do feel better. It’s just really hard to do especially since my ancient dog doesn’t need much exercise. And I prefer a good walker with me. Ok I’m done whining. I’ll clean the bathroom today, … maybe.

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  2. Hang in there, this too will pass. (as your wise Aunt Peg probably also said). I was in a serious doldrum yesterday, but today seems to have dawned brighter. Do something you enjoy and don’t be too hard on yourself.
    Hoping to reschedule our Italy trip to next year…

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