Woe Was Me

I finally stopped moping today. I had been suffering from a general malaise caused by heat, and lack of sleep, and exacerbated by questions I couldn’t answer, and projects I didn’t want to touch because if I did then I’ll have more and tougher decisions later.  It all felt like too much. Not clinical depression […]

Why is it so hard to stop doing what you hate?

When I think about doing what I hate a funny image comes to mind– flank steak.  When I was 22, I dated a guy who cooked flank steak for me. It was one of his two or three specialties. He would marinate this rather stringy cut of beef in Heinz ketchup and honey. He was […]

In praise of contentment

My manifesto says, “Do What You Love, Love What You Do, and Stop Doing What You Hate.” What I love to do is putter. And futz. Give me a life of puttering and futzing and I’m deliriously contented. Merriam Webster defines putter as “to move or act idly; to work at random.” Futz is a […]

This isn’t working for me

I want to rewrite history. I want to make a different decision in the moment, but the moment has passed. So my only option, aside from kicking myself, is to feel my conviction so intensely that I never make that mistake again. Here’s what happened. We were staying with friends in Avignon in a comfortable […]

I’m Doing It Wrong

This is the flavor of my low self-esteem. I automatically assume I’m wrong. Someone else is better, they should be the one in front and in charge. This thinking has led me to avoid leadership positions and underachieve. I don’t want to be responsible for failure. But now as a wise woman who cares less […]